It’s never easy to understand why people behave certain ways. Why people say one thing and then do another. Why people make promises they have no intention of keeping, knowing that not keeping those promises will hurt someone else. Why people lie when they could just be honest. Why people do everything in their power, either consciously or unconsciously, to destroy something good. Why people can’t just be better, why they don’t want to be better. Myself included, sometimes.

My friend Andy looked into my future and told me the following: “Nothing up-in-the-air, half-defined or with a particularly weak foundation will survive 2012. But what takes its place will be better.”

One foundation in my life is full of cracks. More of them everyday. And I’m the only one down on my hands and knees trying to repair it, filling the cracks with all I have, truly all I have. The reality is that it’s not a foundation that can be repaired because it will take more than my desperate efforts to repair it. So it becomes clear: though it’s heartbreaking, the best thing to do is walk away from this crumbling foundation, chalk it up as a loss, and take comfort in the foundations I have that are strong. I have some foundations that are built to last, this I know.

And I will build new foundations that will be better because of what I have learned. How’s that for some hippie bullshit, y’all? It’s true, though: it’s true.